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Ms. Ranty-pants
Jan. 31st, 2010 11:38 pmTerribly stressed. The internship people said they'd contact me within a week of the interview, so now every time the phone rings I'm so nervous I gag. Fun fun fun.
I hate applying for things. I hate writing about how awesome I am, because it makes me feel like a cheat. I hate fidgeting about the presentation of everything, and sending it in and waiting waiting how I hate waiting, and I hate worrying about being rejected and if it comes to it, I loathe being rejected.
And I hate, hate, hate the fact that something so small and stupid makes me wither into a frightened little oozing canker blossom of negativity. Someday I may have an actual problem, and God only knows how I'll deal with that.
I hate applying for things. I hate writing about how awesome I am, because it makes me feel like a cheat. I hate fidgeting about the presentation of everything, and sending it in and waiting waiting how I hate waiting, and I hate worrying about being rejected and if it comes to it, I loathe being rejected.
And I hate, hate, hate the fact that something so small and stupid makes me wither into a frightened little oozing canker blossom of negativity. Someday I may have an actual problem, and God only knows how I'll deal with that.
