I truly empathize. For myself, those realizations bring with them a kind of panic. But, in my experience, and from what I've seen of others' experience, things *will* work out.
It sounds silly to say it like this, but: it will work out because you are not drug-addicted or suffering otherwise from impaired judgment, because you are *very* intelligent, because you pay attention to things around you (by which I don't just mean physically, but more broadly), and because you have supportive friends and family. So no matter what you end up doing over the next few months, things will work out.
… This may not allay the panic, but I hope it does. Or! You may not be suffering from panic--in which case, good.
Hold on to your writing dream. No one I know makes a living as a writer, but many people I know do make it professionally (not *me* yet, but many people), and I think you can certainly be among them.
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It sounds silly to say it like this, but: it will work out because you are not drug-addicted or suffering otherwise from impaired judgment, because you are *very* intelligent, because you pay attention to things around you (by which I don't just mean physically, but more broadly), and because you have supportive friends and family. So no matter what you end up doing over the next few months, things will work out.
… This may not allay the panic, but I hope it does. Or! You may not be suffering from panic--in which case, good.
Hold on to your writing dream. No one I know makes a living as a writer, but many people I know do make it professionally (not *me* yet, but many people), and I think you can certainly be among them.