*I* still get all torn up thinking about it. It's pretty horrible of me to say I'm glad that that feeling conveys. . . but I'm glad that feeling conveys.

And this is weird, because I was just on the other side of this equation with Ann Leckie and Ancillary Justice…. Her scene was even more intense, because it doesn't occur offstage. I sent her an email saying Nooooo, and she wrote,

saw a blog post a couple days ago where someone said "why did you have to do that to that character????" or similar in all caps. And I thought, "Oh, I'm sorry! But I had to!"

But she said writing it made her cry. I'm sure you've had similar experiences, writing.