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The never-ending saga of grad school applications continues. Wrote a longer Statement of Purpose. Ordered more transcripts. Fretted about my study abroad transcripts. Had a meltdown. "WHAT IF EVERY SINGLE GRAD SCHOOL REJECTS ME?"
At which point everyone cried, "Stop worrying! You'll get in!" which is SO UNHELPFUL, because:
1. Though I may at this moment sound like a basket case, my self-esteem does not in fact need propping. I already know I'm all that and a bag of chips.
And, more importantly,
2. Is the thought that I might not get into grad school so terrible that we can't even discuss it? I'm not demanding a detailed contingency plan! Merely admitting to the existence of contingency plans would be nice.
No one ever plans for things to go wrong. I had a friend who flunked freshman year of college and another friend who realized that she hated her major and absolutely had to change it at Christmas break of her senior year, and both of them are still in the thralls of nervous breakdowns because they didn't plan for life to be like this.
Not that either of those circumstances are ones you can plan for; and not that having a contingency plan is going to preclude a nervous breakdown if I don't get into any of my grad schools. But at least it might lessen its duration?
At which point everyone cried, "Stop worrying! You'll get in!" which is SO UNHELPFUL, because:
1. Though I may at this moment sound like a basket case, my self-esteem does not in fact need propping. I already know I'm all that and a bag of chips.
And, more importantly,
2. Is the thought that I might not get into grad school so terrible that we can't even discuss it? I'm not demanding a detailed contingency plan! Merely admitting to the existence of contingency plans would be nice.
No one ever plans for things to go wrong. I had a friend who flunked freshman year of college and another friend who realized that she hated her major and absolutely had to change it at Christmas break of her senior year, and both of them are still in the thralls of nervous breakdowns because they didn't plan for life to be like this.
Not that either of those circumstances are ones you can plan for; and not that having a contingency plan is going to preclude a nervous breakdown if I don't get into any of my grad schools. But at least it might lessen its duration?
